why am i this way?

for real... i want to be back to myself! i hate this. i am so sick of it! i am miserable! i dunno what has happened to me! i need help... for real! why am i acting like i am acting? it isn't like me!?! errrrrr i need to get out!

"I'm really not into rap....

but put on some Beastie Boys and I can really throw it down"- Mrs. Ford yup. i love mrs. ford. she is sooo funny. neways, how is everyone? good i hope. i haven't written in a while, bored with the internet really. it is like when you have satellite and you still can't find anything interesting to watch. well.... i am bored now. i just got back from eating and the mall with cody, cass and their parents. we had fun. we were trying to find clint(coach smith) a suit at the mall... no luck. well... i am off to bed. i am pretty tired, ooo yeah- i got a spray tan today. it was pretty neat. i am looking forward to being tan for once in my life! hahaha

ahhhh

ok.. so today i lost my car... in anticipation for my new car! lol.. i am so excited about getting a new car, yet i am really sad to lose this one. I mean, it was my first car. and it is my little red almost sporty looking car!
yeah.. ok... bye

school is starting again

i am sooooo sad. i really don't like school! i know that everyone says that, but i used to love school, now i hate it! i am so tired of getting up at 5:30 and taking a shower, getting ready, and driving 20-30 minutes just to fall back to sleep in my first 3 classes!
i guess i will stop complaining now...

my Christmas went well, despite the fact my mother went crazy the week of Christmas. everything was sooo stressful. it is like, everyone goes crazy to get the last minute shopping done and they forget about what is really important. it stinks big time! i am glad it is over and a new year is upon us!
Cody and i are great! he took me hunting last Saturday. he didn't kill anything! haha.. it was a lot of fun though! i am glad i went!
well... i think i am done for the night. i am going to bed.

Let's take a walk through a day in the life of Rachel

... ok.. today has to be one of the most horrid days i have had in a while!
It started ok, i got up at 5:15 to wash my hair and straighten it bc i knew i had to go to work today... well it was raining out so as soon as i stepped out the door, my hair went from straight to super wavy. i had to pull it up, and it was up for work, which i hate.

Then, i got to school and told Mr. Inglis i had to work and would have to leave practice early, he seemed a bit perturbed by that... but i can't help it!!!

my day went on as normal and i thought that would be the last of my badness... uh uh... it started again when i got to work. Paula, the nice manager, was there. i was happy to see here bc she always has a smile on her face! then she left and it was Melissa's turn to "manage" us. She gets on my nerves soooo much.. you just have no clue. she was being all mean to us and when the mall closed she was ordering us around and changing the way we do things. which stinks bc now we have to start all over again... anyway... i hit my arm on the counter and it is sooo sore. i wanted to cry, but i am a big girl now! then my sinus' started being retarded and i couldn't breathe. i had such a bad headache that i couldn't even concentrate on what i was doing. when it was 10, i was suppossed to leave, but no... she had to check and make sure everything was perfect. blah... i have to leave! if you want to be sued... make me stay. i finally left...

when i got to the light to go towards home, it wouldn't change from red to green..i just turned around and went the other way. it got too annoying trying to wait.. then i got to wendy's. yes food!!!i was starving!

When i pulled to the speaker this is what happened:

guy: "Can i take your order?"
me: "One second please!"
guy: "That is a #2?"
me: "NO! i said one sec!"
guy: "OOO with cheese."
me: "SHUT UP!!!!!, YOU DON'T LISTEN!"
manager: "ma'am i will take your order."
me: "thank the Lord!"

yeah so i was pretty mad... anyway.. i found my way home after a few tears of frustration emerged from my eyes. i feel better, but i am achy all over and my head still hurts... so i am going to bed!

When you think you've lost your mind....

try to find your heart.

That was just a quote i got from a friend or maybe i heard it on the radio or something! i don't remember but i found it the other day written in a notebook and just sat there thinking about how true it is. Anyways... i haven't written in here in a long time! ... like 2 or 3 weeks.. or it feels like that anyway! i have been sooo busy. It is hard for me to keep up with my blog with all the homework i have on a daily basis, jazz band practice and sectionals after school, work, and of course all the necesities; eating, sleeping, showering.... yada yada yada...
i have a pretty bad headache right now too. but i can't do anything about it bc if i take something it will make me really ornery for the next 3-4 hours. and i really don't need that!!! i am sooo tired too. i think i need a vacation! i am soo happy we have the next 2 days off.. though it should be 3. i am taking tomorrow as a sleep during school day! you will see me with my blanket and prolly a pillow all day! i refuse to stay awake! i hate haveing to come to school on a holiday! blah....
and i am scheduled to work tonight, but i have to call and make sure they want me to come in. if they don't, i will be the happiest person alive!!! if they do... i will be even more drained than i already am! *gag* well... i guess this will be it for now! love you all!

stop moving

hehe.. ok.. so i am over at cody's house! whoa who.. yeah ok..neways. i haven't posted in a while..just thought i would update! rick is currently proofing my paper. go rick go! hehe. well.. i can't wait to get it back and see all the wonderfuly magnificient changes he has contributed! hehe... jp rick. i am glad you checked my paper for me! i love ya bunches!! well.. that is all for now! love yall.